Sometimes you can only kicking your feet and scratching your head for things that out of control. For now, Eagerness just can't beat time. All the talent in the world cannot learn if not given opportunity to be nurtured, let alone mine. And opportunity is limited. At least for now. While, people say you will know when you are ready. You will be ready when you have to. It is unimaginable, the future. It is uncomforting to wake up every day and try your best to prepare to inhale all new things while hanging on to the things that running already through your system. Sometimes you think you might forget all the substansial idea if you keep being stuffed up, at times you can't concentrate to absorb new knowledge whilst keeping up with the old one.
It might be always that way, but it bothers me so much now that i care. Now i remember why i never try to do big things in the first place. You won't deal with failure if you never try. I just breezed through life until I realized I really want big things.
It has been a month but I have not yet to able find times to read for leisure or for just for the sake general update of information. Beside a very insignificant little amount supplementary work stuffs and headline news, i just can't seems to find the time. Maybe some precious things really need to be sacrificed.
Maybe i will be ready when i have to. But for now i am not. And the anxiety is taking joy from my precious sleep.
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